TRUE SERENITY

To be truly serene, this little, very well known prayer says so much more than at first sight. In general, the way I see it, there are two main types of directions in spirituality, when we are not completely serene / in equilibrium. One is the masculine way, the other the feminine way. There are many shades of colors in between them, and of course it is not at all this black and white. I am using the extremes here, to make it more palpable and clear. 

There is the spirituality of DOING, getting as much knowledge, trying as many methods, going to as many events, patching as many negative thought patterns with positive thoughts, making as many vision boards and roadmaps as possible, troubleshooting the could’s of the future. To just get to enlightenment as quickly as possible. To want to change the world as quickly as possible because it is so wrong. Free will is supposed to get us out of this for f*ck’s sake! 

It is – yes that is right – exhausting, because at some point one realizes that no matter how much one does, there is always more to do – and one never feels complete, serene and fulfilled. It is a loop of doing, to get out of the situation one does not appreciate or feel comfortable with. One tries to change the person one does not like or feel comfortable with (often that being oneself) and is trying to escape the NOW moment. One wants to control the outcome because one is not trusting and/or respecting Source / God / the universal laws and dynamics. It is a permanent swimming against the stream. 

And there is the spirituality of BEING. Letting things come to oneself. Letting go, letting go, letting go and surrender, surrender and surrender again. Let it all be. All is one. I am all and nothing. ”I” doesn’t even exist and is the illusion. The body is not real. Actually nothing is real. One doesn’t like the situation, but if one sits long enough, things will change. Not wanting to interact with the world, because it is too much. Not wanting any structure or roadmap in life, because it feels too confining. Expecting the Universe solves it, because it has put one here after all and one has no free will and choice. Believing the Universe or Source or God will deliver all the good things to one’s doorstep. The Event has to come at some point! After all, one has suffered enough, so there needs to be a reward in the end. Even if it is just dissolving back into the ALL as there is no point to this whole physical experience anyways. 

It is – yes that is right – exhausting, because at some point one realizes that no matter how much one sits and is, there is always more sitting (and waiting) – and one never feels complete, serene and fulfilled. It is a loop of being, to get out of the situation one does not appreciate or feel comfortable with. One wants the universe to decide for oneself, what one needs. To escape responsibility and to give one’s power away to an outside force. It is a permanent floating in the stream without giving oneself any direction. 

Ain’t that a beautiful paradox? Both ways are disempowering, both ways are rejecting the painful physical experience because they only see one side of the coin but not the coin itself. Both ways are not truly OWNING their reality. True serenity comes with an equilibrium between those two sides. 

YES, sometimes, we CAN change things. Those are the moments of inspired action, or of expressing a clear boundary with a clear ”NO” or expressing a clear intention with a clear “YES”. Those are moments, when we actively step into the unknown and into our fear to break on through to the other side. When we actively shift a trajectory for us or for others to enable growth and expansion – and to then jump a timeline. 

And NO, sometimes, we CANNOT change things, no matter what we would do. Those are the moments of letting go, of true surrender, of unconditional acceptance of what IS. 

The wisdom to know the difference is the ultimate art of breathing with the flow of life. To know when it is the moment to DO, and to know when it is the moment to BE. 

The texts I share are always based in my own experience and observations. By no means I am claiming this to be the ultimate truth. I encourage everyone to find their own truth and to be open to it changing as new information integrates. As this is universal wisdom of us ALL, I do not claim any copyright. Feel free to utilize and share, as long as you keep the text complete as it is so it keeps its energetic signature. Thanks Vera

*SERENITY PRAYER BY REINHOLD NIEBUHR